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[Feb. 24th, 2006|09:30 pm] |
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| |  happy | ] |
| [ | music |
| | Dancing Through Life- Wicked Soundtrack | ] |
Moooooo~
School is going well, and the exit exam is coming up soon.
So yea. That's my small update. |
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| Cut here, cut there, even cut my hair.. |
[Jun. 26th, 2005|08:48 pm] |
| [ | mood |
| |  very depressed | ] |
| [ | music |
| | Oceania -Bjork | ] |
I think it should be evident.. that I am really depressed right now. I have been crying for a while now, and feel like crying more. I'm obsessed. I know. But, it's so hard not to be. It's like drugs. Addictive for me.
And I hate it. I really do. It causes me more problems than I need. I am very sad. And sometimes I think about what it would be like to die. But that wouldn't do me or anyone any help. And I hate that too.
I cut my hair last night. Just out of hatred. For everything. It makes me think that everything is regressing back to the way it was.. @___@;;
Gosh, I'm so tired.. and my head is pounding. ((Gee, you'd think I'd know that means something by now))
I'll write more later.
For now.... Good night. |
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| Not fun. |
[Jun. 19th, 2005|10:00 pm] |
| [ | Tags | | | whtever | ] |
| [ | mood |
| |  Hrmmm.. | ] |
| [ | music |
| | My own singing. | ] |
So it all started out with a trip to the local pizza place. I was annoying my mom, mom gets upset.. We finish our meal and instead of going to the movies as planned we went home as per my request. ((I was Tired)) and the condition was that I couldn't goon the computer. For some reason or another I reacted badly to that and rushed to the door to stop my mom and dad from getting in. But dad beat me there. I shoved him. Got past him , ran to my room and found my computer already off. Seeing my dad, I got reeeeally angry, and started hitting him.. My mom called mobile respone and I got even more upset. It was horrible. I rushed over to her and tried to cover her mouth with my hands. She then called the police! I ran to my room screaming and scared as heck. I was so scared, panicked and hurt, that I went into my mom's room to where I knew she kept the sharp scissor and then I cut myself. I slapped my cuts and then they bled. I wiped the blood on my mirror and then cleaned it off of my arm with water in my bathroom. I was calm again. I went back to the living room. My parents were there. I asked if the police were coming. They said no. But then I heard a know on the door. The police were here. They came in and asked my parents an me questions. I showed them my cuts. I was 5150'ed. Taken to the hospital in an ambulance. There they put a bandage on my cuts and then released me. The end of that day. ;____;; |
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| Dream Time |
[Jun. 1st, 2005|05:27 pm] |
| [ | mood |
| |  Happy | ] |
| [ | music |
| | Twilight-VanessaCarlton | ] |
Dreams.
I want to float away,
To turn, twist, and sway.
Into the night beyond,
Till the night is gone.
Visions.
I see things in a blur,
It's a giant lure.
I'm pulled in by it's beauty,
Only to find it's an enemy.
Minds.
I know my mind,
In it there's nothing I can't find.
But when I'm asleep,
It won't tell me a peep.
Conscious.
While awake I am conscious,
Alert of the wondrous.
But asleep, the sub comes out,
And creates dreamtime throughout.
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Anyway... Yea. DA is being crappy for me. And gaia is getting annoying... (Mostly because of my art commisioners) buuuut, I will go on~! C'est la vie! |
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| Romulus and Remus |
[May. 25th, 2005|07:32 pm] |
| [ | mood |
| |  Happy | ] |
| [ | music |
| | Rinse-Vanessa Carlton | ] |
Todays prompt: The legend of Romulus and Remus set in an alleyway.
Poor young babes...
Left all alone
In a back alleyway
Mother twas killed
But babes was spared
By the wolf of the streets
Who came upon the twins by chance
and nursed them by to health
till they were full grown
knowing the ways
of the wolf
and it's world.
~~~~~ |
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| More Writings By Me |
[May. 23rd, 2005|07:55 pm] |
| [ | mood |
| |  peace-! | ] |
| [ | music |
| | Ordinary Day | ] |
Todays Prompt:
Write a haiku, and maybe? A short story to go along with the haiku.
Walking along side
Beach shore staring at the star
In the black of night.
Shouts of glee and joy pouring in from everywhere. Which was odd, considering the black of night I thought.
Sand collected in our shoes briefly before taking time to drift out. Being here, the beach I mean, was somehow calming when it was night. I walked by the shore for some time watching it come in and out while making a soft whooooooosh sound. After some time I bent down and began to search for rocks... One of my favourite things to do at the beach. ...... To be contin. |
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| Hrmmmff. |
[May. 20th, 2005|07:38 pm] |
| [ | mood |
| |  HAPPY~ | ] |
| [ | music |
| | Paint it Black - Vanessa Carlton | ] |
For now on, I will use my journal for little writing promts... That I make up. ^.^
Today is: Write lyrics for a song...
Some Things
Pick away at your wounds
Making them bleed forth crimson...
Knowing all the while that you are slowly,
Slowly fading...
Into darkness you walk
Your day in "paradise"...
The chance to feel alright,
Before you wake up...
In the light you wear that mask
To hide your feelings...
What will happen,
When that mask, that face, is exposed...
Tears flow down your face
Into a puddle on the floor...
Crystallizing as time passes,
Until you enter reality once more...
You reach up to the sky
Learning to say "goodbye"...
Walking cross the road yesterday,
Looking for tomorrow... |
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| Just Shoot Me. Now. .... Yus, please. |
[Mar. 13th, 2005|02:56 pm] |
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| |  Dammit.... | ] |
Like the title says. D: Please. Just shoot me. I feel so. damn. depressed. Or maybe, I'm just tired and overreacting. Now, wouldn't that be nice. But noooooo.. Shoo fly don't bother me, noooo.. I seriously don't know whats's wrong with me. I don't talk to my friends even though I know they are there for me.. I am seriously holing up now... and you know what? I hate it! Positively hate it!
My stupid school program isn't exacxtly helping either. Shannon, my new therapist doesn't help me with my problems or even help me work them out.
Oh well.. I'll just crawl into my little hole and... yus?? Maybe wither up and die.
BYE NOW.... |
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| In wonderland |
[Mar. 6th, 2005|09:35 pm] |
| [ | mood |
| |  bugged by parents | ] |
Prologue
Once upon a time
there was a girl
She was lost and afraid
And so, not knowing what to do
She sought out revenge upon herself,
the world, and on everything she knew. Until,
one day a prince came along and showed her,
he showed her...
Just how precious life could be.
She closed her eyes and a tear trickled down,
when she opened them the prince had disappeared.
Still, she had learned her lesson well and will always
keep on hoping!
Searching!
To find her prince again!
This girl,
she found a world,
a world of wonders where she could go and be free.
She named this world Wonderland and vowed to visit always.
But,
one day
when she came back she found it gone,
so she was lost,
and alone once more.
Chapter 1
The girl who had found a world then decided to travel the earth. What she found was another, who had been just like her and was in search of her prince. Together they vowed to help each other, as they made their way through the world. Though they did not know each other's names yet they knew it was for the best. They searched for what seemed like years, from desert to frigid polar regions. Until they came upon a vast field of wildflowers. What was peculiar about this field was indeed was the small tea table placed squarely in the middle of the field. On the tea table were two large teacups, with ornate flower designs. Next to the teacups was a equally large teapot that had a delicately painted honeybee on it. So the two young ladies promptly walked over to the table and sat themselves down in the array of flowers. Then, just as they were about to pour their tea, a lady all in a white taffeta gown with lace cuffs ran through the field towards them singing at the top of her lungs. "Oh I'm so late, so late, so late". She looked as if she were made of porcelain. She had the palest of skin and the rosiest of cheeks. To top that she had beautiful brown locks that framed her face just nicely. Out of the top of her head came two slender rabbit ears... As she got to the table she slowed down and took notice of her surroundings. Then without a further thought she batted her eyes, hopped once and was gone.
The two girls who had been about to pour their tea, where now sitting back several feet from before with astonished looks on their faces. The first girl stood up cautiously and looked about. Taking notice of the other, she exclaimed "My gosh! Your hair's changed color! And.. your eyes.. It's most peculiar... But I do believe they've changed as well!" The other, hearing this reached for a strand of her once dull, gray hair.. only to find that it was green! She proceeded to flip her hair over her face so she could inspect all of it. As it turned out half her hair was white and the other half was green. While she had been inspecting herself the first girl had started inspecting herself for changes as well. As she expected, she had changed... Her damaged brown hair was now a glorious ultramarine blue and as healthy as hair could be.
The second girl, now finished with inspection turned back to the first and said.. "Well... This is an interesting change isn't it? First that lady, now this..", the first girl stopped her inspection and replied, "Definitely. By the way.. I haven't introduced myself to you yet. My name's Ruweyna or Ru for short". Ruweyna curtsied politely and waited. It seemed as though the other girl was looking at her properly for the first time. She knew that she didn't have much interesting on... Only, some tattered jeans faded by the sun, a shirt that was a hand me down and a pair of worn pink Candies flip flops. As for what color her eyes were... She couldn't tell anymore. "I... I..I'm Desna" The sudden sound of speech broke her out of her train of thought. "Oh, I'm sorry... What was your name?" Ruweyna had to ask. But before the girl had a chance to reply... the two were sucked into another dimension.
WHHHHHHoooooSSSHHH!
The girls were being taken for what seemed to be a slide down an invisible tube.... And it hurt! They kept being thrust into each other or onto the walls of the dimension tunnel... Then finally with another WWWWWWWWWWHHHHoooooosSSSSSH! of air, they were flung out of the dimension tunnel.
Chapter 2
Oouff! I hit the soft grass covered ground with a thud. "Ouch," I said dumbly as I stood up and looked around for the other girl... Ruweyna was her name. Over a few feet away in a clump of rather large mushrooms, I spotted her. There was some dirt on her face and she seem a bit bruised. "Hey, are you okay," I asked, hoping she wasn't hurt. "Uuuuunnngh" came her reply. "Yea, I guess I'm okay" she said, getting to her feet. It was then that I noticed that someone was watching us from behind the biggest mushroom to our right... The purple, polka-dotted one. I knew right away because I saw the tips of white rabbit ears. I immediately suspected the lady the lady we saw earlier. I motioned to Ruweyna to come close.
"I think the rabbit lady is watching us.. " I said stating the obvious. Then louder I said " We know you're there lady, so come out!" After about a minute.. The porcelain rabbit lady came out from behind the mushroom and smiled at me. Then she said "Hello.. May I introduce myself? Oh I suppose I should anyway." She came over and shook hands with both of us, then continued "My name is Amaira W. Rabitt and I am here to take you to see the king of Wonderland" At first I thought she was kidding. Then it dawned on me... She really expected us to come and see the king!
But before I could say anything Ruweyna spoke up. "Wonderland? You mean... MY Wonderland?" Amaira, seeming a bit disapproving answered, "Yes, it is. Why are you so surprised, Ms. Ruweyna?" I looked at Ruweyna, wondering if she really knew where we where. "Well, you see, it's just that it's so different from before.. " she said looking quite puzzled. this time I interjected before Amaira could speak. "Wait.. what's going on here? How do you know this place? I know we talked about looking for a lost world. But this?!" Ruweyna turned to face me. The puzzled confusion was clear of her face. It seemed like tears were going to come streaming out of her eyes at any moment. (To Be Continued) |
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| Hello Again. |
[Mar. 5th, 2005|09:21 am] |
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| |  HEHEHEHEHE! | ] |
Hello again, peoples/whatevas. I am doing fine as always...
Okay.. So just to let everyone know (THAT MEANS ME) I am now working on writing a story called "In Wonderland" and will be posting updates here. I am trying to reach 10 scences.. Or at least to outline them. ;__; This is going to be one of the biggest projects I've ever done so I'm going to just have to stick to it! (STICK TO IT, Stickto it, STICK TO IT, STICK TO IT!!!)
Anyway... The first capter will be up soon. Along with the prologue. |
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| Okay..... |
[Feb. 16th, 2005|03:37 pm] |
| [ | mood |
| |  ~~So wild~~ | ] |
| [ | music |
| | Cherry lips | ] |
So yea. On V-day I went to the movies and saw Boogeyman with Kelly. Talk about a real scary movie with little plot. I was almost afraid that it would never end. Oh well. It was lots of fun. :) Oh yea. I got a fictionpress account started. Plus, I've worked more on the story "In Wonderland". I'm really psyked about it. '___';
So far all this week has been rainy. (Yay) But, that's also bad.. Becaus ethen I can't play tennis. (BOO!) |
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| Oh YEA~! |
[Feb. 13th, 2005|10:59 am] |
| [ | mood |
| | Hehehe~! KILLING SPREEE! | ] |
| [ | music |
| | Love Makes the world go round | ] |
Like... Yea.. Today I was invited to go with Kelly to Sunset beach...
And... Like... I wasn't allowed to go even though my parents... who have been pushing for me to get out of the house and make friends... Grrr..
Oh well, that's life. ^.^
So anyway, not much has been going on lately. I've gotten into Bronze level from Assesssment... And I've been on 2 outings... Which have been real fun. <3 Mostly because of something I won't mention here..
Valentine's is tommorrow and I still don't have a boyfriend.. But then again.. I'VE NEVER HAD ONE, WHICH I THINK IS PERFECTLY NORMAL. Uhm.. Yea. :D I've started writing a story.
The main character is Kisa (see other post), and the secondary characters are Ru, and Des.
It'll start out with Kisa's story then bridge with Desna's and Ru. I think it'll be awesome. But of course.. It'll take alot of work. :):) YAY! I will also be doing litlle illustrations of the characters and posting them up from time to time. :) Yuppers. |
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| Story time! |
[Feb. 13th, 2005|10:55 am] |
| [ | mood |
| | ticked off | ] |
| [ | music |
| | Peices of Me~ Ashlee Simpson | ] |
Dee's Story/ Ru's Story
Once upon a time
there was a girl
She was lost and afraid
And so, not knowing what to do
She sought out revenge upon herself,
the world, and evryhting she knew. Until,
one day a prince came along and showed her,
he showed her...
Just how precious life could be.
She closed her eyes and a tear trickled down,
when she opened them the prince had disappeared.
Still, she had learned her lesson well and will always
keep on hoping!
Searching!
To find her prince again!
~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~
This girl,
she found a world,
a world of wonders where she could go and be free.
She named this world Wonderland and vowed to visit always.
But,
one day
when she came back she found it gone,
so she was lost,
and alone once more.
~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~
This girl who had found a world then
decided to travel the earth.
What she found was another,
who had been just like her and was in search of her prince.
Together they vowed to help each other,
as they made their way through the world.
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They searched for what seemed like years
Until they came upon a wide field of wildflowers.
What was perculiar about this field was indeed
the small teatable placed squarely in the middle of the field.
Tea had clearly been searved and was ready to be drank.
So the two young ladys promtly walked over to the table and sat themselves down in the array of flowers. Then just as they were about
to pour their tea, a lady all in a white taffeta gown with lace cuffs ran through the field towards them singing at the top of her lungs "Oh I'm so late, so late, so late". As she got to the table she slowed down and took notice of her surroundings. Then without a further thought she batted her eyes, hopped once and was gone. The two girls who had been about to pour their tea, where now sitting back several feet from before with astonished looks on their faces. One of the girls..... TO BE CONTINUED.
Characters-Planning them out.
Role: MC
Name: Kisa K. Atarial
Nicknames: Kisa Kat, K, Kissy
Age: 15
Height: 5'4"
Weight: 170lbs.
Gender: Female
Race: Kitarian
Eye color: Crimson Red
Hair color: Jade Green
Skin Color: Fair skinned
Likes: Butterflies, Tennis, Drawing, singing, writing
Dislikes: "Stuff" as she puts it. She is a picky eater and doesn't care about proper nutrition. She dislike nagging, bragging, most sports and having to get up early.
Talents:( they don't have to like what they do like magick) Her talents include performing earth magic, tennis, and drawing.
Life story: Kisa K. Atarial was born into the royal family of Atarial and from the moment she was born, she was raised as such. As the royal heiress to the throne Kisa or Kissy as she was known, had always had a desire for adventure. So when he mother Anastasia died, her dad finally acknowledged it was time to start getting her ready for the world outside of the castle....
Other Info: She's a depressive, who been hospitalized 3 times. She also tends to have two sides to her( two personas). One comes out only around family/friends and while she's at home or in a home based inviorment. The other comes out whenever she's away from home/home-like setting. She doesn't have multiple personality disorder, it's just that she changes her personality in different situations/ puts on a mask as she puts it. She has 2 close friends whose names are Desna and Ruweyna. Both of her friends pursue a quest of their own. One looking for a lost world, the other... a lost prince. She also wears glasses or in somecasses contact lenses.
More info to be added.
Role: MC's Parent
Name: Anastasia H. Atarial
Maiden Name: Anastasia H. Umania
Nicknames: Ana, Anne, Mrs. Atarial, Mrs. Umania, mom
Gender: Female
Race: Kitarian
Age:49
Hair: Golden Blonde, Sholder length, normally up in a braid.
Eyes: Green, wears glasses.
Height: 5'2"
Weight: 172 lbs.
Hobbies: Volunteer work, biology, taking care of her family.
Likes: neatness, animals, bird watching, socializing
Dislikes: being left out of the group, dirty stuff, grumps
History:To be figured out...
Other info:
Role: MC's Parent
Name: Kenneth C. Atarial
Nicknames: Ken, dad, Mr. Atarial
Gender: Male
Race: Atarian
Age: 53
Hair: Copper, tied back in a ponytail
Eyes: Blue, wears glasses
Height: 5'7"
Weight: 160lbs.
Hobbies: Bike riding, work
Likes:To be filled out.
Dislikes: To be filled out
Other info: To be filled out.
Role:SC
Name:Desna Bruschet
Nicknames:Desna, DesDes, Dee
Gender:Female
Age: 14
Hair: Parted at the middle, half of it is a marine green half is white.
Eyes: Golden
Height: 5'3"
Weight: NONE OF YOUR BUISNESS! (In her own words)
Hobbies: None that we know of...
Likes: Her prince.
Dislikes: People who lie.
History: Living out on the streets all of her life, Desna gets lost one day after taking a bus on the wrong route. Lost and afraid she fears for the worst.. Until a prince appears and helps her out.
Other:
Role: SC
Ruweyna Areiolis
Nicknames: Ru, Ruweyna, RuRu, Ra.
Gender: Femme
Age: 14
Hair: To be figured..
Eyes: To be figured...
Height: 5'5"
Weight: *blush* Uhm.. I'm 88lbs.
Hobbies: Doesn't really have any..
Likes: Her wonderland.
Dislikes: Being with too many people.
History: As a young girl she was maltreated by her parents and always wanted to get away. One day when she went outside and it was raining, she saw a glimmer of light. She followed it into a hole that lead her into a mysterious "wonderland".
Other: |
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| Well Okay... |
[Feb. 3rd, 2005|09:14 pm] |
Arlo is back at Families First, but the other questiong still remains....
Is Kelly going to come back/Where is Kelly?
But, it's not like they are going to decide to tell us all of this.
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On the other hand.. The happy one... I have no homework tonight and my bronze petition was accepted. |
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| Like... WHAT?! |
[Feb. 2nd, 2005|04:16 pm] |
| [ | mood |
| |  ditzy | ] |
So anyway, I'm in this Family's First Program. Right? Yup. It's a great program. It's really helping out and it gets me to school even when I'm feeling down. |
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| And so she slept... |
[Dec. 7th, 2004|11:23 pm] |
| [ | mood |
| |  restless | ] |
| [ | music |
| | Undiscovered-Ashlee simpson | ] |
Yus, I slept. Cause that is what I do.
Anyway, a song that describes what I'm feeling is Undiscovered by Ashlee simpson.
I have writers block, artists block, and basically everything block. It stinks. =____= |
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| Oh how I adore thee. |
[Dec. 5th, 2004|08:39 pm] |
| [ | mood |
| |  periods aren't supposed to.. | ] |
| [ | music |
| | Better Of - Ashlee Simpson | ] |
*sneaks a peek from under her covers*
Is it okay to come out yet?
Is my period over and am I back in school?
No. Gosh darnit. Not yet. I still need to work up to it. I am still drop-out girl.
And this drop-out girl has had her current period for 2 weeks now. >:{
And i wonder why I'm all moody...
"Period, Oh how I adore thee..." |
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| Doctor, Doctor... How do you feel today? |
[Dec. 4th, 2004|09:37 pm] |
| [ | mood |
| | Rain is falling on my head | ] |
| [ | music |
| | Blue-gackt | ] |
Today I feel,.. as usual... depressed.
WEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE! |
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| Quizzie |
[Dec. 4th, 2004|09:27 pm] |
| [ | mood |
| |  melancholy blues | ] |
| [ | music |
| | blue-gackt | ] |
A - AGE: Fourteen.
B - BAND LISTENING TO RIGHT NOW: Gackt
C - CRUSH: Yus.
D - DAD'S NAME: Ken
E - EASIEST PERSON TO TALK TO: My dad.
F - FAVORITE BAND: hrmm...?
G - GUMMY BEARS OR WORMS: Chocolate covered gummi bearz please.
H - HOMETOWN: Uh... Concord
I - INSTRUMENT: Flute, Clarinet
K - KIDS: Maybe in the future.
L - LONGEST CAR RIDE: Texas-Florida
M - MOM'S NAME: Anne.
N - NUMBER OF SIBLINGS: none
O - ONE WISH: To be happy.
P - PHOBIA(S): height
Q - FAVORITE QUOTE: If you picked the petals of a flower would that mean you deflowered it?
R - REASON TO SMILE: Friends, family, love.
S - SONG YOU LAST SANG: I forget. But It was a song I made up.
T - TIME YOU WAKE UP: Around 9-10am
U - UNKNOWN FACT ABOUT ME: I'm bi. (No flames please)
V - VEGETABLE YOU HATE: most all.
W - WORST HABIT(S): Procrsrtination, being messy, not taking care of myself.
X - X-RAYS YOU'VE HAD: lungs
Y - YUMMY FOOD: Chocolate icecream
Z - ZODIAC SIGN: Capricorn |
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| Like, Like, Like... OHMYGOSH! |
[Dec. 2nd, 2004|07:53 pm] |
| [ | mood |
| |  Aggrivated | ] |
| [ | music |
| | Ashley Simpson- Unreachable | ] |
Oh, okay.. So I'm a pessimist. You've got me there.
Fine, I hurt myself.. You got me there too.
But, really.. really... How can you expect me not to be?
The world is so damn depressing! Every day, you open the newspaper and read articles about awful things. You can flip channels and see kids cartoons full of violence. But that's supposed to be funny, right? I mean it's just a cartoon. Nothing bad, sad, or depressing about that, right? No. Just going outside can be depressing. Because when I go out... I see hazy skies and smokestacks mixes in with beautiful hills...
It's awful. terrible....
Anyway.. Enough of that. Don't take any of it seriously.
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